3:35 AM
Sunday, January 8, 2012
 It has been almost 3 months since we break up. Something that u never change make me able to reach u in some way. U might not knowing it but i can hardly imagine how u'll feel after knowing that i got all ur updates as well as ur conversation with her. Yea right, i know im not suppose to be doing that. But this is the only way for me to know your recent activities. In this 3 months, i'd viewed your profile for quite a number of times and the main things i was viewing were all about u and her. Sometimes i might be viewing it without a reason, but most of the time, i view it to hurt myself deeper. I know it sounds stupid but somehow, i have to do that to keep myself awake. Reading your conversation, reading your love towards her, hurt me deeper, reminds me that u're not mine anymore. I never tears when i read them. I just kept quiet, read them till the end, and i went out of the conversation, steadily. Whenever i think of you, i recall how it hurts, recall your conversation with her. Telling myself not to love you anymore, you're not the one for me. I've been doing these for months, and it works for me. Although i still think of you sometimes, but it's not that frequent already :) I hope i dont need to view it anymore since uin is going to remind me everyday. And someday, i want to be your friend again, proving myself love you no more.
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